fourth day without u 1/7/2010

this few days, i attention for your news~
i know you are good, i'm happy for this~
i still can call you dear, i also very happy~
but the meaning of dear is change, change into a family call~
i not willing to you, but the fact is that~
4 days already, u din automatic find me chat or what~
i'm sad~
but i still want to pretend happy~
my friend every time saw i smile with them, they will say: let him go ba, you still have many choosen, why you must like that geh? before you break with those boy u also din like that arh~ dun think too much la dear~
yesterday night, i follow my auntie go to yamcha, she just 20 years old~she like my friend~
she tell me, everybody also had their love history, happy ending or bleeding love also will be a past~ u can sad, but u cannot do something bad to yourself~ let him go ba~ forget him, start a new life~ you life sure better~ and you two also start no long only~ sad, it's just a period~
the last, she also tell me, let him go ba~
the sentence of 'let him go ba' let me drop my tear~
why this sentence look like very sad for me?
i'm not cry, i'm drop a tear of sad, of pain~
i also don't understand, we only together 22 days~
how come i will like this?
he is my most love people in my life~
but he is a people most hurt me~
i cannot blame him, because of i make a wrong choice at before~
i lose my love~
this's all my wrong~

3rd day without u 30/6/2010

arhh~~
very miss you~
everyday i cannot control myself to find u~
i know i'm silly~
@$#&*^R&(I*

august 31 2009~
we know at that day~
and i know august 30 is your birthday~
i still remember that day u want to ask me something about online shopping~
we chat at msn a few day, then we no touch again~
every time i saw u online~
but i din find u, and u also din find me~
msn is like this, u din find me, i tot u forget me this friend already~
so i also din find u chat~
until recently~
suddenly u find me chat back~
i got some supprise, wow, u still remember me wor~
one day, my friend miss appointment~
i'm trouble to find a friend pui me, so i text to you~
me:fake virgin duck, tommorow can u pui me?pui me drink tea for wait for my friend.
u:can!
i tot my friend will go tomorrow also, whos know they really din go~
> <.. what the...
i sit at nelson tan wait for u, that time we still are friend.
i remember the scene, we are awkward...
u start to get something from me...
......
after nelson tan, we walk to jusco...
fierce sun make me very hot, i keep to find a taxi...
although only a short distance...
fortunately we are walking, otherwise i will lose a good memory~
after we reach jusco, we go to cinema...
we see the hong kong movie, not so nice...
飞砂风中转, a story about lala...
but we have a nice start...

2nd day without u 29/6/2010

today i do a very silly things~
i should not to ask u this question!
and this is a idiot question!
what the fuck lim kah shing?!!!
fuck off myself!
i will keeping my heart to wait for you~
wont change my mind~

i would start my english course at next month~
keep growing up myself~
keep learning social knowledge~
i must try to convince my dad and mum let me to work~
i want earn money~