fourth day without u 1/7/2010

this few days, i attention for your news~
i know you are good, i'm happy for this~
i still can call you dear, i also very happy~
but the meaning of dear is change, change into a family call~
i not willing to you, but the fact is that~
4 days already, u din automatic find me chat or what~
i'm sad~
but i still want to pretend happy~
my friend every time saw i smile with them, they will say: let him go ba, you still have many choosen, why you must like that geh? before you break with those boy u also din like that arh~ dun think too much la dear~
yesterday night, i follow my auntie go to yamcha, she just 20 years old~she like my friend~
she tell me, everybody also had their love history, happy ending or bleeding love also will be a past~ u can sad, but u cannot do something bad to yourself~ let him go ba~ forget him, start a new life~ you life sure better~ and you two also start no long only~ sad, it's just a period~
the last, she also tell me, let him go ba~
the sentence of 'let him go ba' let me drop my tear~
why this sentence look like very sad for me?
i'm not cry, i'm drop a tear of sad, of pain~
i also don't understand, we only together 22 days~
how come i will like this?
he is my most love people in my life~
but he is a people most hurt me~
i cannot blame him, because of i make a wrong choice at before~
i lose my love~
this's all my wrong~